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Anxiety Driven is real, raw and uncut.  It is expression through creative writing and personal messages shared by MMA athlete Jens Pulver and creative writer Todd Smith.  Together, Jens and Todd have created a place to empty their heart and mind while living life with anxiety and depression.  Unified with a message to stop living in the dark and step into the light…knowing peace is attainable, it exists and will be achieved.  Welcome to “Anxiety Driven”.

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I woke up today

Oct 25

10/25/2012 11:06 PM  RssIcon

Every morning my alarm buzzes just like everyone else's.  The birds chirp with the sun rising and my day starts.  Everyone just wakes up.

My.  War.  Begins.  I hit the snooze button...Once...Twice.  I pull the security blankets tightly over my head. Tighter, tighter and tighter until I'm enveloped with my insecurities in the false security of the bed.

Do I wake up today?  Would I be missed?  I'm Alone with my thoughts. A familiar enemy...My worst enemy...My best friend. I'm down in the trenches and I just can't climb out.  The alarm buzzes again, but I'm already late.

It's a shame the way their eyes see through the pain I've just endured.  To demean and deject the fact that I've just fought and won a war.  The war won't end, there are more battles ahead, but I woke up today.

I woke up today...

-Jason


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Re: I woke up today

Jason...that is exactly how I have been feeling for years...you wrote it so eloquently...it lets me know someone else might understand...maybe

By Donna on   10/27/2012 8:37 AM

Re: I woke up today

Thanks for sharing J. Nvr Fly Solo brother...

By Todd W. Smith on   10/27/2012 10:07 AM

Re: I woke up today

Awesome Jason. Welcome to the club brother. This club sucks, but it's got a lot of members buddy. It's amazing how so many of us stand next to each other every day feeling the exact same way. And since we never say anything, we suffer alone for no reason. Thanks to Jens and Todd, that's changing.

By Dennis on   10/28/2012 6:23 AM

Re: I woke up today

Love ya kid. You have so much talent and mostly just from being you! Don't ever go away!

By Rita on   10/28/2012 2:57 PM

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